Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Just Thinking

Okay I think I have scared away all of my readers. I haven't been posting much lately and all of our "big" news about Audrey is over so perhaps this blog isn't as important as it once was. I do enjoy blogging. I don't seem to have much time for it. I should make time because it is something I do really enjoy and it is all for me. I absolutely love comments though. So if you have taken time lately to post a comment - thank you. I also check the stats every time I open the blog just to see how many people have viewed the blog (regardless if a comment was left or not). Today when I checked the stats there was a big 0. Oh well.

I have been feeling very down lately. It all started last Monday evening. When people I love and care about are not happy - that translates to me. I am not depressed, just down.

Our house is all about Legos lately. Nathan is obsessed and Audrey wants to be part of the action. I bought Nathan a set of "creative" Legos to have fun with - his was a reward for working hard on something I asked him to. Audrey was constantly being told that she couldn't take part so I bought some for her so she could have her own. Somehow Nathan managed to figure out how to play with hers more than his own.

Last Sunday I actually had a chance to listen to the talks during Sacrament meeting. It was the 5th Sunday which means our Sacrament meeting revolves around missionary work. Both of our Elders spoke. The first missionary wanted to speak about missionary work with an eternal perspective. He went on to tell about his dad passing away when he was 5. He didn't like attending primary when he was little because so much of what we learn has to do with families (which always includes a dad). He also didn't like Father's Day because well - he didn't have a dad. He has quite a few siblings and he is the youngest. As each of his siblings were married in the temple (he wasn't able to attend because he had not yet been able to attend the temple for himself) the seat beside his mom sat empty. After each marriage in the temple his mom and siblings would then relate to him about the empty chair and tell him that his dad was there. With tears in his eyes he then spoke of what he hope the future would hold for him. He awaits the opportunity to also be married in the temple and feel the presence of his dad in the room. Families are eternal. We have the opportunity here on this earth to be sealed for time and all eternity to our spouses and our children to us as well. For this elder it is heartbreaking when those investigating the church turn away or when he sees members fall away as he holds to the truth of eternal life and families being together for eternity.

4 comments:

HatchFamily said...

I love reading your blog and probably look at it every day (I know, I need a life). But it's something I can do while holding a baby in my arms. Although it's hard to type with one hand :). I thought about you today and should have seen if you wanted to get together to let the kids play since they were out of school but instead I spent the day trying to uncover the kids floor and clean the house a little because my mom is coming tomorrow. Why is it that their room has looked the same way for the past weeks but as soon as I say that we need to clean it up for Grandma to come they pull out all the games with tons of pieces and scatter them all over :(
I loved that Elder's talk. It was so touching. He is a great missionary for being out such a short time.
I hope things start looking up for you guys. At least you get to go on a fun vacation soon.

Carrie said...

I read your blog too! I love it. Blogging is such a great way to document your life and stay in touch. Keep on typing because I will always be reading. You probably had 0 because until tonight I haven't been blogging for a couple of days, otherwise my 1 would be up there. :) I checked my stats today and had 1 person from Croatia, 1 person from Switzerland, and 3 from Canada...? Huh?...Is that for real? But, I like you feel like I am blogging to the wind. Thanks for your comments. :) You are right, you don't need the comments, but it is still nice to see that someone understands, has been there, or cares! Jake was mentioning we need to go to Asheville just today and we talked about you guys. We miss it and all its craziness. :)

Bryan and Emily said...

You are so good at keeping it real, Tonya. I sure love you and wish we were closer to have our kids play. My kids (even the babies) love Legos too. That was the birthday gift of the year this time. Keep blogging I love reading about what is going on with you guys and if you are like me it is a little therapeutic.

Maureen said...

I love the blog. I had checked it a few times with no new messages so I'm back today. Don't stop! The Elder's talk made me cry. I pray that someday all of our chairs will be filled too.